His Clock

How does He choose
what kind of mother you'll be

A mother who grieves
Or a mother of three

Maybe you are both
And lucky like me

Blessed to give birth
to tiny Angels above

And chosen on Earth
For special babies needing love

I've tried to come to terms
with what I did or didn't do

I've bargained and pleaded
for my dreams to come true

I've hoped and I've prayed
I've laughed and I've cried

I've felt my heart break
I've been afraid I might die

This life that I live is
fueled by my Faith

These choices are for Him,
but up to me to make

So I've learned that all things
come on His clock

But His love never ends
His love never stops

So keep believing and praying
and living for Him

For He is the way
and the healing within.

I Don't Go Down Easy

I don't have any answers
And I can't tell you why.

I can say I am fighting
But I also may cry.

I don't understand all my struggles
And I grow tired of being strong.

Have I been so displeasing?
My life decisions so wrong?

All I know is to keep Faith
And trust always in Him.

My prayers have always been answered
Just not when I thought I needed them.

I know this is just another piece in my puzzle
And I realize my journey has been rougher than some.

But I always get up and never lose Hope.
This is just another hurdle I will overcome.

I don't go down easy
And I fight like a girl.

I have a lot of light left
And plan to shine bright in this world.