I Don't Go Down Easy

I don't have any answers
And I can't tell you why.

I can say I am fighting
But I also may cry.

I don't understand all my struggles
And I grow tired of being strong.

Have I been so displeasing?
My life decisions so wrong?

All I know is to keep Faith
And trust always in Him.

My prayers have always been answered
Just not when I thought I needed them.

I know this is just another piece in my puzzle
And I realize my journey has been rougher than some.

But I always get up and never lose Hope.
This is just another hurdle I will overcome.

I don't go down easy
And I fight like a girl.

I have a lot of light left
And plan to shine bright in this world.

Tie a Knot at the End

Grief - it is true and it is real
It doesn't lie, but it sure can steal

It can take your hope, your love and your will
It can strip you of the ability to feel

It may not lie, but can lay heavy on your soul
A crushing weight that can make a hole

The hole can be deep and spread for miles wide
Even your family and friends can get trapped inside

All of this can happen, but don't allow it to remain
You have to find your light that outshines the pain

Look to Him and use His strength if you have none
Keep your eyes on Him and feel the warmth of His Son

You are braver than you feel and stronger than you know
Don't forget the one you lost, but let the loss of them go

Hang on tight to your rope of hope and tie a knot at the end
You may slip and it may burn, but remember this my friend

Love is not what let you down, but instead lifted you up
You wouldn't feel so empty now if they hadn't filled your cup

Cherish their gift and the blessings they bestowed
For the love they gave you is so much more than some will ever know.

Your Tiny One

The tiny life that grew inside
A greater love you'll never find

There are no words to heal your pain
There are no words that can explain

The loss you feel is very real
The weight will lift and you WILL heal

This is no one's fault and don't take the blame
It is God's perfect plan but it hurts just the same

Keep the love but let the loss in
You have to grieve or the pain will win

Don't lose sight of the others you love
Don't give up and keep looking above

For now you have a place being saved just for you
Now you are Mommy no matter what else you do

And your tiny one will wait with family gone before
They will all be there with open arms when you knock on Heaven's door

This Is Your Race

I cry for you now, but it won't last very long
No time for that - we are way too strong

There is nothing that you can't overcome
Every fight isn't to be won, but the battle has just begun

So you dig in at the start of this race
There is no other you, you can't be replaced

God has given us the sign it will all be OK
Let us open our hearts for He knows the way

Life is so short, we're only here for awhile
So you have to decide "where's my place, what's my style"

But I think you're here to sparkle and glow
I think you're here so others will know

They will see your light, so don't let it dim
They will feel your strength and know it's from Him

So eyes turned to Heaven and heart filled with Grace
We are all here behind you, but this is Your Race.

I Wasn't Sure

I wasn't sure I could watch you go
Would there be pain, would it be slow

The pain I felt can't be put into words
I gave you life, now He was taking yours

I understand now why it had to be
The sacrifice of you was to make a stronger me

I wasn't sure if my heart still worked
I wasn't sure if I liked this Earth

I was afraid that you wouldn't know
You wouldn't feel my love before you had to go

But you knew and finally made me stay
You wanted my arms around you when you passed away

Thank you for the strength and show of bravery
I won't ever give up again because you didn't give up on me.

To My Girls

I've always been the fixer
That's just what I do

I've always filled in the cracks
I've always been the glue

I can't fix everything that's wrong
I can't fill in the holes

You will have to bring your own cement
You will have to set your poles

For, I can't forge your path or plan
I don't make the rules

I can't shield you from the ugly truth
I can't protect you from the cruel

I can believe in God's great plan
I can teach you my faith

For that is all we have sometimes
But that will only get us to the Gate

You can't see the finish line
If your eyes are closed in fear

Walk tall to your challenge, for it is yours
The place you should be is here

So know that I am proud of you
No matter what you do

You are perfect in my eyes
You are perfect to Him too

So forge a path that is your own
But know I'm by your side

You can do all things through Christ
And that will bring you pride

I am...

I am a Mom
by choice and by chance

I am a Wife
thanks to God and romance

I am a Friend
because I need friends in return

I am a Griever
with three tiny urns

I am a Christian
because there is no other way

I am a Believer
my heart has the say

I am All of these things
but most of all Scared

Scared of losing who I love
they will no longer be there

I am Struggling with this life
and all I have to be

I am All of these things
but still just have to be Me.